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May This Grieving Never End
I do not want to leave these deep black soils
I feel a deep resistance a clinging within my bones
Like saying goodbye to my dying loved one
I stepped back from the doorway breaking our gaze
And there were those reasons for my mind to say
Leave Now Leave Now Leave it up to Them
So I have done my leaving and it makes my grieving
Longer Much Longer and May it Never End
Because I see now what is made then in that final gazing
Threads woven never breaking
Binding wisps and tightening the images in my head
So much time for weaving this silken rope of grieving
That I hold when my heart is screaming
Or crying in my dreaming
Oh Mercy Please Mercy Come Hold Me While I Weep
Many more years have passed since I lay crying on the carpet
I still feel the woollen fibres pressing on my face
I feel those rough short fibres as my fingers lay there plucking
Searching for a baby’s body that had left for another place
The carpet wet with weeping and breasts that could not stop from leaking
Soaked into the carpet that rough and earthy fleece.
Grown by sheep nibbling the grass grown on that black soil
I will never forget the black soil giving me this peace.
I felt the black soil women coming carrying woven blankets
As they wept and held me they took me to the pond
And washed my wretched body, the milk and the bleeding
That soaked into the ground.
And though it was the black soil, to where I was returning,
The women of my dreaming come from another place,
They came to me from black soil but they are the desert mothers,
From mountains and the forests, from cities and villages,
Free women and imprisoned, not even defined by gender,
Or birthing from their body, just mothers of the spirit,
Love shining for their children, selfless in their own soul,
To comfort and to guide and bring our burdens home.
I saw the people running, running for the plane,
Family, friends and neighbours running for the plane,
Please one more space, one more small space,
For the bonds of humanity please one more space.
For people bravely running, let them come onto the plane.
With anguish and with grieving they took their precious space.
Once we walked into the gardens with perfumed yellow roses,
The yellow chain trees held us for a moment in their shade,
We stood near the herbs of healing, silver green leaves resting,
While a gentle breeze was playing with the tassels of my shawl.
I saw the timeless mountains holding this river basin,
Where the spring rains feed the fruit trees,
Mulberries, pomegranate and the grapes of summer time,
The eagles soar the high peaks and the juniper breeze
Comes drifting down the mountainside.
For a moment my mind is still now,
The desert mothers send me these visions in my mind.
The song of the desert mothers came along the trade routes,
Bring the light of their holy faces to murmur words of peace,
And the song of their sweet voices to guide us in our grief.
People cry we cannot go when our hearts are breaking,
Their voices sobbing and shaking, the desert mothers answer
God sees all our faces and the faith of many places.
They whisper go now, go now, we will stay with them.
Take one more look and hold them, We will be with them for all time,
We will be their witness, for they are our children,
And while there is suffering the grieving never ends.
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Money Will Not Save Your Children
Did you sign up for this then,
When we sold the world?
Now we have to watch the men
To whom we sold the world
Deliver crap right to our door
Make it fast so we want more.
Heart shape waffle maker
Multi hook clothes hanger
Melania silky bed sheets
Anti panic gravity blanket
Kanoodle game to play alone
Imagination overload.
They pile the garbage keep it hidden.
Money will not save their children.
Once a nerd now high achieving,
Getting rich is getting even.
Sedated cats wearing clothing,
Drunk dogs running, falling over,
Children taking selfies, acting like its cute,
Grown men being angry, looking like a brute.
That’s how low you can bring them.
Money will not save your children.
Money will not save your children.
Keep it in a warehouse while you still can,
Make a fortune call it a jungle,
Weeds will grow empires crumble.
Make a fortune name a poor man.
Leave this planet, find a new one,
Send a rocket, look for new land.
Money will not save your children
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Ne’er A Maid
17:25
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Ne’er a Maid
Forgive me for writing
The simplest of rhymes
The cadences soothe
When speaking of crimes.
A soul makes a torrent
Churns bile salt and oil.
The heart beats like thunder
And brain cells will boil.
What could make my blood bubble
Like a fire lake in hell
Becomes not much trouble
And I am able to tell.
Pendle Hill martyrs
Sang for my soul
I knew not their names
But later was told.
Gave me their stories
When I was ready to hear.
Sad secrets so tender
Hands and faces appear.
In a deep forest clearing
Was a fathomless pond
The pool of the weeping
Tears from ages beyond.
Rosewood skin women
Strew flowers over graves
My eyes soothed by petals
Were we angels or slaves?
From essence we come
And then we return to bone
As we grew from the marrow
In our grandmother’s womb
Our mother’s mother made
Our face in a locket beaded
By a silk threaded rope
Were circled and seeded
In our mother
Before her birth
From essence and blood
To ashes and earth
We are the fruit of the woman
Who made the girl, when grown
She then gave birth to us
This is the cycle whole
The seed is fruitful whatever the life
We live we die alone
We grow in two mothers.
And then we return to bone.
With saucy round eyes
And porcelain hearted
I heard glistening tales
Of petals that parted.
In sand dunes and Kombis
And back seats they laid
Then I knew to my shame
I was never a maid.
Shame it creeps quietly
Then grabs on my arm
I rebel I seek freedom
I am trapped every time.
There are secrets so deep
And memories vanished
A stricken heart cannot weep
And the soul has been banished
Since I could form words
The truth was not spoken
The tongue it is twisted
And my voice it is broken.
Like a stigma, a mark
Of mortification
My silent cry grimace
Is my degradation.
So knowledge comes easy
Like essence distilled
When floating not breathing
A chance of life or be killed.
In the bath he lay grieving
His sadness of life
A clown face eyes drooping
No purpose his wife
I saw him splayed in the bath
From a height of three feet
I shrank with gaze blurring
But he made our eyes meet
My bile rises choking
And burns in my chest
My life could be ending
Is this a torture or test
He holds in his power
My life and my death
His hands press the pillow
I no longer draw breath
The searing the soaring
Of mind breaking free
Of viscera screaming
I am now I will breathe
Fingers and toes
Eyes that can see
You know you will grow
And what you want to be
I stand with my bruises
And mind intermittent
Pain seeping outward
A step sends me spinning
Though we feel helpless
We are wise ageless beings
And rising out of my flesh
I was flying not fleeing
A vulture sees death
In the sweetness of life
A whore in a baby
Corpse flesh in a wife
If you seek to do evil
It is that which you find
And though you may flee
It will nest in your mind
Suffer little children
To come unto me
Was the only way out
As far as I could see
If god made his image
And people despoil
Heaven is hidden
There is only turmoil
It is in the way that we see
Some things that are there
And we wonder why
There is a rope and a chair
The rope it lies still
No thought when I chose
Chair stands there calmly
Demure in repose.
So this is evil
Banal like they said
My eyes drifting upward
To the beam overhead.
A trance dream no nightmare
The eye blinded bright
A red shard splintered
From a glass of lead light.
From a window once broken
In a church saved by fate
And flew into my hand
As a jewel it was placed.
So here I am sitting in the
Church of St Jude
The quiet lady chapel
To pray not to brood.
For the soldiers, the fallen
And a babe newly born
A niece smiling down
And a lover to mourn.
Forgive me for praying
To genderless saints
I see them as beings
Beyond those constraints
But we make them our mirrors
And follow lost directions
To valleys and mountains
Lakes with clouds in reflections
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I know there is sweetness
And kindness and faith
The truth I can find it
In my body not a wraith
The blood that once flowed
Is now drunk as wine
A symbol so constant
Holds steady with time.
When blood is chilling
Then nothing remains
This Blood that was Given
Enlivens the veins.
As living was stolen
Bleak ruin my soul
But the Eternally Living
Fed and Made Whole.
A sister baby breathing doll
Became the bargain struck
For the price of my soul
A throat could be crushed.
With this I yielded, hushed
Two years old could understand
The fate of a baby
In harsh cruel hands.
An implicit agreement
Deliberately abstract
Sign language of violence
Became a binding contract.
A toddler goes rambling
Off on her own
Looking for comfort
In other people’s home
When the baby is here
Cannot leave her behind
Strange sight unseen
By the wilfully blind.
A child with a pram
She could barely reach
Arms upward and aching
Pushing down the street.
A babe with a tie and
A smart trilby hat
Not a babe but a man
Anyone could see that.
Grand mother Great aunt
What were they thinking
When these babes arrive
Like refugees sinking.
Tutt tuttingly returned
Press buzzingly ring
Leave at the door
Down the road hurrying.
Beds that are made
Till death you must lie in
When will that be
No one is certain.
Shroud bride released
Stumbles downstairs
Fear shame and cranky
Acts devil may care.
Never smile
At a paedophile
Even if you meet him
Walking down the aisle
Forget manners
Wedding planners
Tear up flags and banners
Use garlic cross and hammers ….
Parchments of memories
That wish to be told
Cruelties and kindness
In my mind they unfold.
Seven lifetimes it sleeps
Like a corpse in a shroud
The generations it keeps
Like a sun behind clouds.
Then with the moving of planets
We foretell as the seasons
She unfurled as a heliotrope
Rampant with reasons
She knew all the answers
She mocked every question
She moved around lovers
As if they were chessmen
In hotpants and platforms
The world was her circus
Walked tightropes with monkeys
For a dubious purpose.
A wild reckless terror
A prisoner released
Leaving behind her
A scarified beast.
The beast became weaker
From scissors not a sword
From a naked wet heliotrope
He cringed not a word
As a bird fights a mirror
And murders itself
He fought the intruder
He was left on the shelf
A midnight cuckoo came calling
Plump ripe fully growed
Cradled snugly in my mother’s limbs
He turned into a toad
I learnt to walk on eggshells
Before the cuckoo turned to toad
Already cracked and broken
I packed my box and hit the road.
So I went to the Mossy Well
Not knowing where I fled
Got on a bus the first I saw
So surely was I led
I stood in the porch of the Baptist’s house
I was told it would come they said
On twelfth night the Epiphany
The crocodile came my way
To be accused by name
And that is what he got
No matter why he came.
I cannot speak for the
Unrepentant souls
Of crimes so dark and drear
Just mark with chalk
And seek holy wells
Protect ones who I hold dear.
I pray for the souls of the helpless slain
For a moment’s gory lust
I stand with my blade at the water’s edge
Watchful sure and just.
They can pray alone with their reptile tears
Or find a priest with hardened skin
To strike with words
To fan the flames
While the reptile burns from within.
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“Let’s strive to enter by the narrow gate. Just as the trees, if they haven’t stood before the winter’s storms can’t bear fruit. So it is with us; this present age is a storm and it’s only through many trials and temptations that we can obtain an inheritance in the Kingdom of Heaven.” - Amma Theodora.
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“Choose the meekness of Moses and you will find your heart which is a rock changed into a spring of water.”
- Amma Syncletica
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First President On The Moon
Happy Birthday to you first president on the moon,
Happy Birthday Mr President we will look up to you,
Favourites of America, are astronauts the chosen few
But always they will remember,
first president of the moon
Hey Mr President
The rich men can build their rocketships
But you will build the tallest tower
far into eternity
It is a brave choice but best use
of your skills and energies
Apollo were explorer apprentices
when we compare them to you.
To colonize the moon,
is not an easy thing to do,
But you built a wall around Mexico
And there are so many rocks on the moon
Don’t postpone be opportune
The world has changed far too soon
On the moon there is no climate change or corona virus
So everything you say is true
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Accounts Of Resistance
08:19
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Accounts of Resistance
On Hyde Park
They have built a mountain
So the warlords feel at home
If they ever come to visit those
Mansions of glass and stone.
Ballistic glass is gleaming
It will not purify the source
Of this wretched funding,
That flows a deathly course.
There is no global Britain
On the streets of Kabul.
What is the global currency
Buying the streets of London?
One Hyde Park winter morning
I crept along the empty street.
And saw the glass towers gleaming
Through a whirlwind made of sleet.
I was swept by voices chanting
Stopped by traffic lights turning red,
Behind glass saw figures moving,
Swaying with arms outspread,
Chanting, humming the air was pulsing.
Who are you up there? I asked.
We are the Desert Mothers calling
From the future and from the past.
Quartz glass windows, but I heard them,
I heard chanting on the roof,
Along the ceiling suspended hallway
Aluminium, clear and bullet proof.
Floor to ceiling laminate windows
Stops the ammunition shell,
Penthouse scenic triple glazing,
Views of heaven come from hell.
Women running, calling, praying
In this money laundered place.
Covered by their linen robes,
Praying for this haunted space.
To these souls, for these sons,
Sins of the Wolf, they were sent.
Praying for their heavy hearts of lead,
Seeing not their earthly tent.
We have our online influence
While democracy still remains,
We let them buy this country
With their death gotten gains.
We took the warlord’s money
But not people who were slain.
Desert Mothers claim the future
Know the past, what the truth is.
Stories over ages, written in the sand,
Secret money deals, swindles underhand.
Sand stories pour through windows,
Telling terrors, deadly deeds.
Behind the doors of citadels,
That is where this money bleeds.
Mothers walk along the trade routes,
Round the mountain, twisting roads,
Fleeing people coming through,
From the war zones, forced from homes.
Past fields of pale pink poppies,
These savage strongholds grow
Another type of bleeding
As people flow along the road.
Past ancient forts and bunkers new,
Where men rule an empire,
Lame and twisted bending or,
Wrought and tense to chase the sky.
Have their fill of worldly offers,
Could never hear a mother’s cry.
God is watching over his children,
The Son is crowned with pointed thorns.
Time it passes, each warlord falling,
Desert Mothers hold the stories.
Those who hear will be haunted,
Still the Mothers soothe my sleep.
As I fall the dreams made smaller,
My thoughts, my conscience close they keep.
I hear the Mothers running
In the mansions, for the plane,
In my mind it becomes a merging,
A call no longer to contain.
For the killers, for the grieving,
They are moving through the passage ways
I hear the Desert Mothers calling,
Running as they come to pray.
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Turning Back The Trade Routes
Turning back the trade routes,
All will be undone,
Back along the trade routes,
The Desert Mothers come,
Turning with the change,
Driven by the change.
With the fire our blood is flowing,
With the flood our dreams emerging,
With the drought our mind is seeking,
With the storms our souls are spinning.
Turning with the change,
Driven by the change.
Walking back along the trade routes,
Past the warlord strongholds,
Turning back the trade routes,
All will be undone.
Back along the trade routes,
It will be undone.
Turning with the change,
Driven by the change,
Making life a wasteland,
Tell you its a jungle,
Name our mirror image,
Turn into nightmare.
Payment makes a fortune,
Inventions of a poor man.
Flying in the prowlers,
Maidens sold to tourists.
Pack their jewels away,
Never will be filled,
They can eat brioche,
Never will be full.
Will never be enough,
Fly them to the moon.
Still never be enough,
Knitting mamas wait,
All will be undone,
With the fire our blood,
With the flood our dreams,
With the drought our mind,
With the storms our souls.
Turning with the change,
Driven by the change,
Turning back the trade routes,
All will be undone,
They never will be full.
It will never be enough,
Fly them to the moon,
All will be undone.
Back along the trade routes,
Turning with the change,
Driven by the change,
It will be undone.
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Gladsome Throng, the coming together of the poetry and voice of Valerie Cameron with the soundscape of Robert Cumings, is greater than the sum of its parts.
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